Confession– Envious of Evangelicals

My mother worships at an evangelical mega-church, one of those “born-again” organizations that have sprung up across the United States in recent years. Her church, like others of its kind, has attracted thousands of members and their dollars, keeps growing year after year, adding programs and services, expanding and developing its capacity for Christian outreach, with single-minded focus, dedication, and effectiveness.

This particular church dedicates itself to global ministry. It now trains and supports full-time missionaries to dozens of countries around the world. The missionary families go to “third world” countries ostensibly to teach, administer medical care, or develop cottage industries for women and children. They return to the States from time to time to give presentations on their progress.  They sometimes bring back human proof of their success.

Recently, my mom came back from church energized by one of these presentations.  A pair of Romanian girls gave a heartfelt speech about they had been rescued from prostitution by the missionaries, and how thankful they felt for their new faith in Jesus. My mom wanted me to be interested in the story, and I pretended, for her sake, to be interested, but inside, my heart cringed.

While Christian mega-churches organize, proselytize, work together, and rejoice in their success, Muslims are still trying to separate Islam from political terrorism. While Christian evangelicals bury their real goal in the delivery of desperately needed social and economic services that should be available to all people in all places, without an underlying religious impetus, Muslims are still fussing about head-scarves and the rights of women to drive cars and work outside the home. 

The Christian evangelicals, like the Tea Party to which most of them belong, are doing something right in America, right in terms of achieving their goals. I don’t like evangelicals, with their back-door approach, and I despise the Tea Party, with its contempt for the rest of us. I recognize that my negative attitude towards these groups masks a sort of jealousy. I want to see Muslim mega-mosques– here,  in the United States—- doing the rescuing, the teaching, the doctoring, and the ministering to populations that need these services. 

Oh, I know, we are making progress. My community’s Islamic Center continues to grow in size and influence. An additional mosque is planned for my end of town, but maybe I’m still “homesick” for the Muslim majority environment in which I cultivated my Islam. Maybe I still miss hearing the azan from a dozen nearby mosques. Maybe I wish daily activities could be planned around prayer times rather than business hours. Maybe I wish restaurants could close during the days of Ramadan.

Evangelicals are certainly supported by the culture of the masses. American culture has evolved around the daily practices of Christians, not Muslims, and therein lies an impediment to the further integration of the Muslim lifestyle into the American mainstream. Muslims must insert themselves into this pre-existing culture, rather than build one from scratch. My community offers instruction on Sundays and calls it, “Sunday School.”

The evidence does show that Muslim communities are growing is size and influence, right here in my community. I must give thanks for this, rather than let my heart sink because of the superiority of evangelical efforts. Islam has not matured in America, and will not mature in the near future. In some ways, living here as a Muslim is more difficult for me than for a Muslim who was either raised in a Muslim society or converted to Islam without having lived in a Muslim country. I was raised as a member of the majority, and converted to Islam while living in a Muslim majority. I don’t like being a member of the minority with respect to religion.

This is my personal struggle. I accept it.

About Marahm

At first glance, I may appear to be a middle-aged American woman with kids, grandkids, retired from a job in a hospital, gratefully relieved from the responsibilities that come with all of that. Behind the image, which is true enough, I am fairly unhinged from much of American mainstream living, having spent twelve years in Saudi Arabia, years that sprung me from societal and familial impositions, and narrow bands of truth. I have learned to embrace my identity as a seeker, an artist, and a writer. I study Arabic and Italian language, because I love them, and I love their people. I still dream of spending more time in the Middle East and Italy, though the dreaming now seems more real than the possibilities. I am a photographer. I write, and sometimes publish, flash memoir, and now a blog or two.
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6 Responses to Confession– Envious of Evangelicals

  1. Issam says:

    Welcome back sister Marahm! Very happy to hear from you.

    Evangelical Christians care about one thing only, which is converting people to their religion, and all of these services that they provide are geared toward that goal. The only exception could be World Vision.
    I despise this approach. One should not exploit the needy and poor for the sake of religion.

    There are similar Muslim organizations that provide relief, food, health care, shelter etc… all over the world like Islamic Relief, Helping Hand for Relief and Development, Zakat Foundation of America etc… but they do not proselytize.

    My dream has been to found a Muslim organization like Islamic Relief or World Vision that does all of things above and get people to know God too. I presented my idea to people from the Persian Gulf countries and things are looking positive.

    Your strength is something to behold, sister Marahm. You are indeed a role model and an inspiration.


  2. Marahm says:

    Issam, I return your Welcome! I become silent from time to time, but I always return. Thanks for commenting.

    InshaAlllah you will build a Muslim Relief! I know some of these organizations exist on an international level, and humdullilah for that. I simply hope to see the day when they are as big and numerous as the Christian efforts, and are located right here in the Mid-Western heartland of the United States of America.

  3. susanne430 says:

    In the reverse, I wonder if Christians in Muslim-majority countries have similar thoughts as you do. I could very well imagine a Christian in Saudi Arabia lamenting the fact that there everything is geared around the Islamic culture and there is not even a growing Christian population or churches since none are allowed.

    Interesting post. Thanks for sharing your thoughts on this topic!

  4. Marahm says:

    Hi, Susanne! Yes, I can tell you that Christians in Saudi Arabia were (and still are, I imagine) miffed, to say the least, because they are not allowed to practice their religion there, let alone do so publicly, and establish organizations..

    They try to draw a similar parallel as you have drawn, saying they have it worse. In the United States, Muslims are allowed to practice Islam freely, while they are not allowed to practice their faith in the Kingdom except in secret.

    True as it is, my response is that this parallel does not shed light on the situation of which I complain. Chrisitanity has long ago evolved from the dark ages in which Islam now finds itself. I admire its progress, and I long for the day when Islam, too, enjoys a good reputation worldwide.

  5. susanne430 says:

    I understand. 🙂 After I posted this reply, I thought maybe I should clarify myself. I didn’t mean to say your complaints aren’t valid. I just couldn’t help but wonder if there were an Arabian Christian Marahm jealous of Muslims for some of the same things. 🙂

  6. Marahm says:

    I doubt it. All Saudis are raised as Muslims, The only Christians who end up in Saudi Arabia go for employment, and do not make a permanent residence there. As you know, some other Muslim countries do have Christian minorities who are born and raised Christians amidst a Muslim majority.

    I sense that Chrisian minorities are better integrated than Muslim minorities (outside of Saudi Arabia) but I do not know that for sure. All I know is that the United States has more of a problem integrating Muslims, because of 9/11, and 9/11 is nearly synonymous with Islam in the American mind.

    We have a long row to hoe.

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